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Friday, August 12, 2016

Hello World and the 30 people who used to follow this blog! I hope you all are still around and will get this message. I have decided to return to the world of blogging and learn as I go. I fell off the face of the blogging earth (at least it feels like that) five years ago without really trying. I was going through a living hell and wasn't ready to talk about it let alone write about it, so I just kind of stopped without realizing it, I even searched for my blog and was able to find it more on that in a later post when I do one about Brain Fog after alcohol abuse.

I am going to post to this blog as often as I can while I work on a new blog that will eventually take over for this one. The topics of eating, writing and moving will be areas in the new blog along with other topics like addiction. The new focus of the blog is going to be the topic of Alcoholism after Weight Loss surgery. I became an alcoholic after weight loss surgery and my new blog is going to chronicle that journey, what it was like, what I went through, how I entered Recovery and my journey to wellness, self acceptance and a healthier me. I have to decide what to call it, consult with a few blogging friends who have been at it for a while to learn what I didn't know the first time and then jump into it.

If I can even help one person not go through the living hell I did for the past six years or help those who care about or love some one who is or has experienced issues with alcohol post surgery, or prevent someone from going through it in the first place. I will achieve my goal. 

Blogging has helped so many people on personal journeys of all kinds. I know in my heart this is going to help me.

Stay tuned!

Thursday, July 28, 2011

8 Foods That Help You Lose Weight

 I thought this was interesting and will incorporate more of these into my diet!

Friday, July 22, 2011

It's a long haul to self care

Each day I reflect on the lessons I learned about not taking care of myself, but taking care of others. The biggest single step I have to take in order to continue on my journey to health is take care of  myself. I'm trying.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Can't do it without eating some bariatric foods

I apologize for my absence over the past two weeks. I've been working my way through some tough issues and I tend to run and hide from the world when I'm in that mode. I know, not a good strategy for a blogger.

For the past year, I've been really wanting to  meet all my protein goals with the use of regular food. I have always struggled to get enough protein in even before my surgery and it is even more important now. When my body doesn't get enough protein it holds on to weight. This has been the case for the past year and my weightloss slowed to well, basically nothing, just going up and down by the same few pounds. The weeks I ate enough protein I'd lose and you guessed it the weeks I didn't I'd gain.

So I finally have in and started ordering some bariatric foods from and have lost weight the past two weeks because I am getting enough protein. These foods are designed to be low in fat and calories and high in protein, a winning combination for weight loss surgery patients. It took me a long time to come to this realization, but what matters is I made it and now I am losing again and I believe I will get to my goal.

Make it a great day!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Great Website for Meatless Meals and Cooking with Children

I came across this website today and will be trying some of the recipes. I am not a vegetarian, but do like to eat like one. I also only eat protein raised in a humane way. Enjoy!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

What Are Your Rocks?

I apologize for my absence for about a week. It's been difficult one in my recovery, but some important lessons were learned that I will share here. I have always struggled with self care. I'd have to assume if you are reading my blog either you do too or know someone who has. I also tend to sabotage my success.

Last week I went to my doctor to discuss this and to talk about the ways in which I wasn't taking care of myself. She said, you have to get your rocks in order. What are the things that matter most to you? Find those and focus your energy on them. Much easier said then done.

I tend to be a talker not as much as the doer I want to be. I realize this is because I usually take on too much which makes it hard to do all I want. Don't get me wrong. I am very good at what I do. I'm an excellent teacher and the writing projects I'm working are coming along.

However, I've been going through a really hard time financially for the past few years which has been very draining and the stress of it takes away from energy spent on all the productive things I want to do.

I am also way too hard on myself. After all, I have lost 60lbs. Yes, I'd like to lose more, and I am and I will, but what I need to do is learn balance.  Another concept I've always struggled with. This morning I'm going to  my doctor to review some recent blood work I had to see where my levels are regarding B-12, Vitamin D and other essential levels. My thyroid is out of whack and we are working on that too. So, once we get all these things back on track my energy should be back and I'll be making more progress on all my goals.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

For Better or Worse In Sickness and in Health: Marriage Vows

It is essential to be able to talk about ones struggle to recover from an eating disorder with those we love most. I have been doing so with my husband during my struggle, but particularly in the last few days where I am really beginning to see the extent of my self destructive habits. I have a doctors appointment Thursday with a new doc in my primary care physicians office, one who specializes in working with people who've had bariatric surgery. I am going to write a brief letter, way easier then trying to tell  her and will take less time too and ask for a treatment plan to help me get back on track to good health.

When I asked my husband how is able to handle watching me go through such a tough process he said, "I believe the words were, "for better or worse." That has given me all the motivation I need in order to take this many headed dragon my eating disorder and wrestle it to the ground until its dead.

Make it a great day.