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Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Fed Up with School Lunches Blog

This is an excellent blog from a school teacher who is working to bring attention to the problems with school lunches. Check it out


Three Weeks on Liquids Is Over!

My three weeks on liquids ends tonight! It wasn't easy but important in the healing of my stomach and intestines. I move on to soft foods tomorrow. What does that mean? Things like cottage cheese, ricotta cheese, re fried beans with cheese, scrambled and soft boiled eggs and soups. Here is a recipe I got from the Obesity Help Website. This tasty soup got me through the last few days when I was really tiring of liquids.

Also, check out the blog Fed Up with School Lunches I will post momentarily.

Creamy Black Bean Soup 1 tbsp olive oil 1 small onion 2 garlic cloves 15oz can black beans 3 cups chicken broth ½ cup salsa ½ c sour cream Salt Pepper Shredded Cheddar (optional) Heat the oil in a large, heavy saucepan over medium heat. Saute the onion and garlic until lightly browned, about 4 minutes. Add the beans, stock and salsa, and season with salt and pepper. Bring the soup to a boil, reduce the heat and simmer 10 minutes, stirring occasionally, until the flavors blend and the soup thickens slightly. Puree the soup with an immersion blender.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Weight has stayed the same for three days and I am not engaging in any eating disordered thinking.

A big step in recovering from any eating disorder is to stop thinking in distorted ways about food, ones body and how much we weigh. I am now 15 days past my RNY Gastric Bypass. I'm walking two miles a day, following my food plan, healing well and feeling great.

I've dropped 18 lbs in this time. For the past three days my weight has stayed the same at 203. In the past when I was under the control of my eating disorder this would have upset me and likely ruined my day. No more! I know my body is taking a break and this could last a few weeks. I believe in my doctor, the education and counseling I've received and I am making all the right choices.

I am strong, hear me roar! Stay tuned and as always. Thanks for reading. Please sign up to follow my blog if you haven't. I'd love to have your support and thanks to those who have.

Monday, March 15, 2010

I took my two cockatiels to have their wings clipped today. It doesn't hurt. It is like clipping a dog or cats toe nails. If you do it right, all is well. They need this done so they don't fly away or into walls or windows.

This got me thinking about how birds of a feather flock together. This made me want to recommend a very helpful website to anyone interested in finding support for weight loss or recovering from obesity. I've been a member of this online community for about three years. It is a great web site for education. Remember though, there is no substitute for seeing your doctor before starting any exercise or weight loss efforts. Enjoy!


Sunday, March 14, 2010

11 days to go on full liquids!

What an incredible experience on the full liquids. I can tell you I am looking forward to the soft food stage I'll start on the 18th. I will always supplement my diet with protein shakes and drinks I am looking forward to eating food again. Real food that is. The closest thing to real food I've eaten is soup and pudding. This is a vital stage in recovery from the bypass because the stomach needs to heal. So, I'll just get through it. I've been researching recipes and planning menus for the next phase. Until then, I'll keep at it and keep losing.


Saturday, March 13, 2010

Head Hunger/ Putting the Scale Away and Healing from Obesity

This is like phantom pain, a pain we feel, but it isn't really there. I experienced it today for the first time since returning home after my surgery. I was full and I knew I was full so I sat down to think about why I felt hungry. I know myself well enough to know I was an emotional eater most of my life. I ate when I didn't want to feel and it turns out I also ate to not feel before the feeling I was trying to avoid arose. That is what happened today.

Despite my doctors best warning to not weigh myself daily as in his words "It would drive me crazy" because of the bodies tendency to fluctuate it wasn't good for me emotionally either. During the past five years I got in the habit of weighing myself daily. There are pros to it, but for me, there are too many cons. Research does indicate that those who weigh themselves daily tend not to gain back lost weight because they get on top of a rise quickly. I learned this in a weight control group run by a licensed psychologist. It wasn't the best advice for me and now I am trying to break the habit.

I have 8 lbs left to go before I am under 200 lbs for the first time in 20 years. I've been telling myself I don't want to miss the day I wake up and see I am under that mark and into what those in the weight loss surgery community call "Onederland" weighing in the 100's.

Today my head hunger was caused by the fact that I only lost 9 ounces over night. This is after an average of a 3lb drop daily since returning home from my bypass. One thing I know about suffering from an eating disorder and having been raised a perfectionist is that I am much more able to see what I consider a bad result then all the good. That is why I felt hungry when I wasn't physically hungry. This is where I realize that was emotion talking not real hunger.

Learning to recognize the difference is key. I am proud of what I've achieved so far. I am healing well, walking a mile a day 11 days after surgery and following my eating plan. Tomorrow is a new day. I'm going to put the scale away and only weigh once a week.

I'll let you know how it goes.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Mourning and Food

There is no question the first three weeks on the Stage II Diet of liquids and very soft foods is tough. My husband of course continues to eat normally. I know it is hard for him to watch me go through this, but we both prepared for this emotionally.

I find myself observing some of the things he eats like ice cream and I find myself noting the following "I'm okay with the fact that I won't eat a full serving of regular ice cream again. I can have a bite or two, but I won't take it further. To do so is slippery slope. I can have fat free or sugar free ice cream, yogurt, sorbet etc.

The good news is I am learning how to prepare desserts that are sugar free and low fat. So it's not like I'll never have something sweet again. I've been enjoying sugar free jello with a little lite cool whip. Sugar free pudding with a scoop of protein powder and cool whip. These all satisfy that craving, so watching Scott eat a regular cookie or some ice cream isn't a problem and this is good, very good.

Still, I notice there is a tinge of mourning in this for the loss which is normal. However, the benefits of the life saving gastric bypass surgery I had makes those feelings and thoughts pass quickly...

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

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Monday, March 8, 2010

Today was a much better day

I stayed focused on getting in my protien and fluids throughout the day and felt none of the symptoms I had yesterday. I dropped six pounds overnight. That is water and gas weight leaving the body post surgery.

I'm experiencing one of the common side effects of weight loss surgery, gas, and lots of it. At times it sounds as if I have an alien inside my belly! My husband and I are getting some good laughs out of it.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

A Powerful Lesson Today

I learned the first thing I need to do is drink a protien shake and get some food in the system. I woke up feeling thirsty. Staying hydrated is very important, especially right after surgery. So I chose to drink water.

We went to the mall so I could get some walking in. It went well. We did a little shopping and then weakness hit me like a ton of bricks. I had to sit down. I felt light headed and had a headache at the same time. Not a good feeling! We stopped and got a myoplex protien drink with 42 grams of protien. Had to drink it warm, and still it wasn't bad. I took an hour and a half nap when I got home and have been struggling with a headache most of the day. I have about 30 more ounces of water to get in so I will be sipping until I go to bed. It is 6:30 now.

I have to wait 45 minutes between drinking fluids and eating. I am on all fluids right now so it was a bit confusing what to do. I drank a cup of tea first and then thought I should wait to we got back from the mall to get my first protien shake in. That was a mistake. Lesson learned. Protien/food first. 45 minutes, then tea and liquids.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Surgery Went Well: It's My Birthday Today

I came home from the hospital yesterday! My surgery went fine. It is a huge psychological relief to have the lap band out and to have the gastric done. I am not hungry at all. That will change over time, but the next few months there won't be hunger.

I left the hospital off all my diabetes medications. I am taking my blood sugars each morning and each evening before bed. As long as they stay under 150 I will be able to stay off these meds.

I consider today my "first" birthday. This is a new life and a new way of living. I intend to do well with this tool and to reach my weight loss goals and maintain that loss.

I just want to give a shout out to the entire staff at Dartmouth Hitchcock. I received superior care. The nurses and LNA's were great and my surgeon Ted Trus, did a fantastic job.


Monday, March 1, 2010

Surgery is two days away

The time is finally here. I've been moving towards this day my entire life and I am ready for it. We leave tomorrow to stay overnight near the hospital. I need to be there at 7:00 a.m. so we won't to be closer.

I'll post when I get back. Cheers!